I stayed up late, scrolling through Facebook.
I knew I shouldn’t have.
I normally only jump onto Facebook once a day, quickly, for say five or ten minutes, and usually that is with a purpose.
And rarely do I log on late at night.
But this night, I did.
I logged on late, an hour past my bedtime. I got stuck on there for probably half an hour.
I read stuff and saw stuff, that I didn’t need to read and see, especially right before bedtime.
So I went to bed, feeling unsettled.
Feeling fearful of this world that we live in, this world that we are raising our children in.
The next day, I had to take our car to have new tyres put on, and I didn’t want to. I wanted to stay in my home where I feel safe and secure.
The following morning, I pulled on my big girl pants. Shot up a quick prayer that the Lord would keep us safe and off we dashed.
While we were at the shops filling in the time, I received notification of a horrible tragedy that had taken place that morning, on the other side of town, where my family live. This of course is always news not well received! We headed back to the mechanics to collect our car and drive home.
As soon as we arrived home, I felt relief.
Relief that we were home safe and sound.
And relief that the Lord looked after us, again.
I also felt relieved because I could now reconnect my Spirit with my Saviour and hand all of this fear over to Him.
Once I walked inside, I clicked on Pandora on my phone and my favourite station was playing – Bethel Live Radio.
Immediately the tears came and a peace washed over me.
Why didn’t I do that earlier?
Why did I allow myself to live in such fear?
To walk around all morning, four hours now, being fearful instead of living in Faith?
The first song that played was Set a Fire by Will Reagan
Set a fire down in my soul, that I can’t contain that I can’t control.
I want more of you God, I want more of you God.
Yes God, I want more of you! More of you God! It’s not just a need, I actually want more of you Lord. More of you Lord!
What do you do when your spirit feels heavy?
I’m running to your arms, I’m running to your arms.
The riches of your love, will always be enough.
Yes Lord I am running to your arms. I am running right into your arms Lord. There is where I am safe. In your arms do I find safety and peace.
Your love will always be enough, always be enough.
My spirit was peaceful. I was no longer governed by fear.
My spirit was connected to My Saviour once again. I felt like I was soaring.
I really didn’t want to stop the music to begin our school lessons for the day. I was relishing in the peace that His Spirit brought to my soul.
God is all I need!
And I need him today.
Only Him!
I can’t do this life on my own…
Hi, Nadine.
I left FB a few months ago for the same reason. It left me unsettled.
I was re reading a post I wrote a year ago, and you said you left AO plans… I did too. They did not work for my girls either for another year. I’ve benefited from AO for long, I still use their ideas, but like you, leaving forums and FB, and focusing more on the Lord, it’s making a great difference in me. Days are not smooth always, but I don’t have that constant fear, or restlessness, and I bounce back to Him and comforting thoughts faster when I feel low.